Monday, January 9, 2012

Love

After some very tumultuous relationships

I look at my relationship with Rick and am soo grateful of how peaceful we are
how in love we are
how silly we are
kind
we
are.

We are passionate, gentle, and supportive.
We love our kids.
There is nothing I wouldn't trust him with and nothing I couldn't
count on him to do.

He is the best man I know.

I love him, and I can honestly say I am looking forward to
sharing his last name:)

THANK GOD FOR YOU RICARDO ISRAEL!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Diagnosis- Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy

Okay soo.... Micah was diagnosed with hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, a thickened heart muscle that makes his heart beat irregular.

Because of this I dont know how safe it is for him to go under general anesthesia to have any surgeries. He needs to get some work done below his belly so we are waiting for more results and so Micah gets to wear a heart monitor every so often and the docs will decide if he can go under general anesthesia and if he needs meds......

I can't even think of this and the risks it involves. I have to just enjoy each moment and not overthink this.  I have to be strong for Mikey...

Here is some Wikipedia info:

Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy (HCM) is a primary disease of the myocardium (the muscle of the heart) in which a portion of the myocardium is hypertrophied (thickened) without any obvious cause.[1][2][3][4][5][6] It is perhaps best known as a leading cause of sudden cardiac death in young athletes.[7] The occurrence of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy is a significant cause of sudden unexpected cardiac death in any age group and as a cause of disabling cardiac symptoms. Younger people are likely to have a more severe form of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy.[citation needed]
HCM is frequently asymptomatic until sudden cardiac death, and for this reason some suggest routinely screening certain populations for this disease.[8]
A cardiomyopathy is a disease that affects the muscle of the heart. With HCM, the sarcomeres (contractile elements) in the heart increase in size, which results in the thickening of the heart muscle. In addition, the normal alignment of muscle cells is disrupted, a phenomenon known as myocardial disarray. HCM also causes disruptions of the electrical functions of the heart. HCM is most commonly due to a mutation in one of 9 sarcomeric genes that results in a mutated protein in the sarcomere, the primary component of the myocyte (the muscle cell of the heart).
While most literature so far focuses on European, American, and Japanese populations, HCM appears in all racial groups. The prevalence of HCM is about 0.2% to 0.5% of the general population

In children
Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy (HCM) is one of the most uncommon cardiac malformations encountered in pediatric cardiology. This attributed largely to the phenotypes is usually absent, incomplete, or delayed into adulthood. Most of current information pertaining HCM arises from studies in adult populations, and the implication of these observations for pediatric population is often uncertain.[71] Nonetheless, recent studies in pediatric cardiology have revealed that HCM accounts for 42% of childhood cardiomyopathies with an incidence report of 0.47/100,000 in children.[72] Further, in asymptomatic cases, sudden death is considered one of the most feared complications associated with the disease in select pediatric population. Consequently, the recommended practice is to start screening children of affected individuals throughout childhood to detect cardiac abnormalities at an early stage in hope to prevent further complication of the disease.[73]
Generally, the diagnosis of HCM in a pediatric population is made during assessment for murmur, congestive heart failure, physical exhaustion, and genetic testing of children of affected individuals.[71] Specifically, echocardiogram (ECHO) has been used as a definitive noninvasive diagnostic tool in nearly all children. ECHO assesses cardiac ventricular size, wall thickness, systolic and diastolic function, and outflow obstruction. Thus, ECHO has been chosen as an ideal means to detect excessive wall thickening of cardiac muscle in HCM.[71]
In HCM, treatment strategies aimed to reduce disease symptoms and lower the risk of sudden death.[74] Due to the heterogeneity of the disease, treatment is usually modified according to individual patients needs.[74] β-blockers improve left ventricular filling and relaxation and thereby improve symptoms. In some pediatric patients, β–blockers drugs (e.g. propranolol) were shown to effectively reduce the risk of sudden death.[74] Further, calcium channel blockers (verapamil) and antiarrhythmic drugs maybe used as an adjunct therapy to β-blockers in symptomatic children. Nonetheless, further testing is needed to determine their definitive benefits.[74]

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

My beautiful Daughter and super elf:)

Teihani is BEYOND wonderful!
I feel like I may have the world's most amazing daughter.
She gives without thinking of return.
She loves to help people.
She is a good sister.
She has such a loving and kind spirit.
She is not mean, and doesn't have a mean bone in her body.
She makes me laugh.
She is honest.
She is gentle.
She is strong!
Courageous.
Intelligent!
I love her!
I couldn't have asked for a more amazing young woman, to call my own daughter!
She is teaching me new things each day!

Teihani, thank you, for all that you do for others. You are an inspiration to me.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

OH MY GOODNESS- I love my baby




I can't even keep pictures of him up at my desk because it makes me lactate.... Isn't that WEIRD??? Well it does wonders for breast feeding cause when I go to pump at work, all I have to do is look at his pictures and my milk lets down:)
This morning, before going to Grandma Linda's house he woke up all bright eyed and happy like he always does, and just stared at me.
I learned some more baby signing so I shared some words with him and he threw his fists up. The Deaf call this babbling with his hands:)

My little Deaf boy is BEAUTIFUL!

Mikey's First Signing Word:)

Hey, it's a start lol:)
I actually didn't even realize his fingers were in this position until I went through the photos!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

December 12-12-11 Micah's Hearing Levels Confirmed

So little Mr. babbling, Micah finally, after several long long tests, has had his hearing levels evaluated successfully.
This involved lots of comforting, sleeping, holding his head still instead of using his clever side to side maneuver to shake off the electrodes, our new doctor, Dr. Mancl of Childrens and UW health, had a different kind of quiet room, one with pillows and a reclining rocking chair.
I put Micah in my moby wrap and snuggled him close and the test was successful!

Afterwards, the doctors explained the results, and talked to us about communication opportunities. Including ASL/Speech cues/and the cochlear implant/hearing aids, etc.

My boy has hearing levels that are called Profound Permanent Hearing Loss. He didn't LOSE his hearing though, he never developed most levels of it. He is in the "profound" range which means he cannot hear speech, or regular household noises, but he can distantly hear things like vacuums, or blenders or loud trucks. As if they were across the street. The good thing is, he hears some things. The question is how can we help him communicate if he cannot hear letter pronunciation. We learn all methods, and teach him total communication, using speech cues, sign language, lip movement, and all other methods, combined into one to give him the best advantage.

He is a very visual little guy, he will laugh and talk and play and interact, you would never know that he is not hearing much sound. But as a Mommy, I did know, I always knew that if I am not in his range of vision, he cannot hear me sing, or talk. So I am always sure to speak in front of him or where he can see me. I use some exaggerated facial expressions and lots of and motions.

It is the 14th, 2 days later.

Suddenly everyone is an expert on the Deaf and the cochlear implant. Really?
Guess what, if you are not experienced IN THE DEAF community, I don't really want to hear about how you "studied" ASL in high school for a semester or something, and how you hear the entire Deaf community shuns implants or how being Deaf is a horrible, saaaad disability, etc. bleh bleh bleh
 It's ignorance...
What you took a class and now you are an expert, now you are speaking on behalf of the ENTIRE Deaf community? Really?
SHUT UP.

Sorry had to get that off my chest. I am fortunate to know people who
can provide substantial information about Deaf children and individuals as well as experience around the cochlear implants, both the pros and cons.

I think friends just need to support us and love us not shove their mis-informed opinions
in our faces.

The thing is, my son is, how he is. My feelings about putting him through invasive surgery to fix his hearing, to me, almost seems unnecessary and unfair. Yes it might make him fit in a little better with the majority main stream society, which we are surrounded by daily.

But what's wrong with being different? He is not alone, there are many Deaf children.
Someone said to me that sigh language is becoming outdated, that it is going EXTINCT?
 Who says it is outdated?
There is an entire community, Deaf CULTURE, Deaf Society, who use ASL every day, and more and more are learning it, even many hearing folks!
It is a specialized language and is everywhere!
4th most used language in the US.

My feelings about the cochlear implant is that they are wonderful but I do not know if
it is the right choice for my son.
I realize that studies show that the earlier he gets them, the better his speech will develop but I am leaning towards letting this be HIS choice when he is old enough. I love him just the way he is, and I , in only 2 days have already learned like 15 baby sign words:) My whole family is on board with learning it. We have 8-12 months to think about it.

Peace world!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

10 Weeks of Pure Baby Bliss








My last month was a TOUGHY I tell ya, back pain, pelvis pain, shooting pains, thigh pains, you name it, I had it. AND STILL, I managed to keep working and still doing capoeira and yoga too. I don't know how I did it, it was pretty amazing and I still think back and am astounded at myself. The day I had Micah, I woke up so nervous, I couldn't sleep a wink the night before, I was so scared of what would happen. For months I had been thinking about the surgery (Micah was born via c-section) and the scariest part to me has always been the epidural. I had dreams of it and tried to focus more on how beautiful it would be to see Mikey and in the back of my mind, the lingering fear of complications lurked...
But, everything went well. At the moment of the epidural, my doctor and nurse and Rico and Tei held my hands, and helped me through as I shook and trembled and cried through silently. I was mortified, but I kept my head in Micah-mode:) Soon I heard my little boy's cry and saw his blueberry face which quickly changed to pinky colored.

AND I FELL MADLY IN LOVE
again.
with
Micah Jose Nahale Israel

6lbs 14 oz
19 inches long
9/9/11