Friday, June 14, 2013

Week 1 of Training

Well I survived my first night of intense training with Troy Diesel.
This guy completely kicked my ASS last night.
We did a variety of circuit training and other things I dont even know what they would be called other than torture, lol, and by the end of the hour I thought I was going to collapse.
I did almost throw up, and my shoulder and legs wanted to quit but I kept pushing.
I kept imagining that my fat was melting with each rep or each lunge or each, whatever. Cause it is.
He kept saying 15 more, and I would look at him like, uh, are you kidding? But I kept going and today I feel like I was hit by a semi-truck but I feel damn good and by the end of this summer, you arent even going to believe the transformation I will have made this to Troy-Diesel here, and my new diet. Yowza, hot mama coming! Stay tuned!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013


What is your intention today?
To be happy?
To be focused?

To be kind?
To be healthy?
To be a good daughter?
Start each day with an intention and  hold yourself accountable for meeting your intention.
Today, my intention is - no negativity leaves my lips.
Swim im positive words and speak only to build and never to destroy.

Fashion Blog

I think I am going to start blogging about fashion for curvy thirties! I put soo much time into finding pieces that fit and work with my body type I might as well share the process incase anyone out there is interested:)

Why the heck not, I love fashion it is soo much fun! Maybe my first post will be tonight even:)

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Dedicated to MY Giants

I had a conversation with a friend at work, regarding a movement of celebrating the "Giant's" in our lives who lifted us up over our obstacles and made drastic differences in the essence of all that we are.

These giants are friends, family, anyone who comes into our life and leaves us more elevated then when we first met them.

These are the people you know, have your best interest as their goal, and they are determined to celebrate your overcoming trials rather than celebrate your trials. People that remind you of your potential, and of your light and being.

Many times throughout my life, I wondered why I was so empowered, filled with strength, love and courage. I didn't understand why my spirit didn't match my circumstances.

I survived so much pain and in the midst of it, felt like something soo much bigger than the struggle, was meant for me, waiting for me.

I realize this is due to my GIANTS! OH and I have many:)

My Father the person who reminds me that laughter is key to happiness and that family comes first, always.
GOD for having big plans for me since day 1.
Leah - for always believing that I am so much bigger than I realize.
My Daughter Teihani - the one who thinks the world of me and makes me laugh, and inspires me to thrive to be a better person every day because she has the biggest heart I have ever seen in my life.
My Mom her kindness, her innocence and her story of survival and struggle
My Soul Sister Suzanne: For her listening ear, advice, and her voice of reason and strength
My Big Sister Thao: For being one I can tell any and everything to and who I can call at 4:10 in the morning and she will be there no matter what.
The Love of my Life- Rico: no matter what we struggle through he will always be the love of my life and the one who gets me.
Capoeira: it brought me through the passing of my ex, through sad days, through physical and health problems, it gave so much to our lives I will forever be indebted to Capoeira and they friends we met along the way.
Jason B: God's soldier who is like a Brother to me, who is always there when I need a listening ear or a person to pray with.
Elijah: Whos belief in what LOVE and Family is, inspires me everyday to be the glue that bonds my family together. Never have I met a young man soo vigilant for what FAMILY means, because he is deeply dedicated to his son and future wife.

To be continued.......


Embellished arms

ink stained skin

 kisses where your last name lies

my ears are yours for filling

with love      with words  

                                       with your air

wrapped in you

                                     in the early hours

when the sun first kisses the earth

I dream of

moments on beaches

that belonged to us
                              shoes sinking in wet sand

                     light blue

memories of laughing on

and dreaming into the tides

the world was ours

Your laughter fills my spirit and echos into my future

your smile is my dance

I know yours is


           I will hold during my

                        last breath

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Were gonna kick your ass!! (True Story)

Overheard in the hallways of the King County  Superior Court:


Plaintiff Counsel:  I don’t think you heard me, but my last demand is $250,000 or we will try this case.

Defense Counsel: Okay.

Plaintiff Counsel: No seriously, the jury is walking in and I am going to kick your ass.

Defense Counsel: Okay.

Plaintiff Counsel: No really, the jury is coming in and I am really serious about trying this case.

Defense Counsel: Okay.

Plaintiff Counsel: You must be stupid. The jury is walking in and my bottom line dollar is $100,000 or we will try this case.

Defense Counsel: Okay.

Plaintiff Counsel: I am really, really, really serious about this case. How about $5,000 or else we will try the case.

Defense Counsel: Okay.

Plaintiff Counsel: Now we are getting somewhere. I accept the $5,000.

Defense Counsel: No, I meant okay to trying the case.

Plaintiff Counsel: I don’t think you understand how serious we are about this case. The jury is here and I am going to kick not only your ass, but every ass in your law firm.  Give me your spare pocket change, and we get your 7th round draft pick in next year’s draft of new lawyers.

Defense Counsel: Nope.

Plaintiff Counsel: Fine, we are dismissing your client and I am really serious about kicking your ass in the next case.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Who Am I?? By: Teihani Nataliah Cruz

                                    Who Am I?

I am Teihani Nataliah Cruz

Child of the free raging winds.

And deep glistening ocean.

Born and raised in Seattle by Wendy Cruz,

A beautiful Polynesian goddess and loving mother of three.

I am the granddaughter of Sandra Lee Kataoka.

An astoundingly resilient woman who will do everything in her power

To keep the people around her smiling.

I am the courageous older sibling of Micah Jose Israel

Who carries an intelligent soul that shines through his glowing smile,

And never fails to brighten my dull day.

My smiling cocoa eyes reflect the beaming hot sun

And my beautifully imperfect skin blends in with the tone of

Sun kissed caramel.

My curvy legs move to the beat of Brazilian drums

As words of wisdom escape my mind,

Quickly falling like the colorful leaves of fall.

I proudly stand at five feet tall,

With my head held so high I can look upon the

Rotating earth beneath me.

I am able to visibly imagine a brighter future

As I give every bit of strength into putting my dreams in action.

My vibrant senses instantly feel the pounding rhythm of my


And the smooth touch of my fingers,

Spinning records that are guaranteed to keep the club live.

My mighty integrity is a trait passed down by my mother

And has never left my side throughout my existence.

The painful obstacles I’ve fought through in life

Have led me down the path to becoming the

Amazingly strong willed human I am today.

I live to watch the nature evolve around me

Along with the growth of myself and others.

I live for the freedom of speech,

And improvement of self-respect

Among teenagers just like me.

I live for my family, dreams,

And peace among the earth.

I was born a blessed child of god

With undiscovered powers that have been

Passed down through generations.

I am Teihani Nataliah Cruz.